I experienced Baby Blues Syndrome after the birth of my precious baby boy.

*A Bit Facts About Baby Blues*
Baby Blues is a postpartum syndrome. It is a kind of depression that 50% women experienced after giving birth. It starts from first day after giving birth, get worst on the third day which last until approximately 14th days. It can be caused by mother's hormonal changing, psychological, physical and social condition. The mother experienced sadness, anger, anxiety, guilt, despair, secrecy, helplessness etc. This syndrome can be relieve by partner and other closed family member supports.

*My Baby Blues Version*
The symptoms were only showing while I'm alone. I felt so alone, lonely, sad, unlovable, somehow so redundant. I cried most of time when I'm alone. I also cried while holding my baby boy. It didn't mean I wasn't happy with the existence of my baby. So hard to explain the uncontrollable sadness I felt at that time. I kept all the feeling by my self.

Unfortunatelly, I only knew a bit about Baby Blues Syndrome by the reading. I didn't aware at that time that I experienced the syndrome badly. The biggest factor which made my Baby Blues was that bad was due to the lackness supports from people around me, especially partner (because I didn't have one at least beside me when I needed him the most).

The important thing is I did get over it. The busyness taking care of my baby made me aside the Baby Blues. Luckily, I didn't feel the symptom like Brooke Shields did (the fact that she felt had no bonding at all with her baby). I felt this special relation between me and my baby due to the fact that he only got me (no partner, remember?!). As written in the previous blog (Welcome Aboard Baby), I stayed with my baby at the hotel. Just the both of us. I take care all his needs. That was the biggest effort for me to get rid of the Baby Blues Syndrome.